Day 2-B: Nakedness

No I am not talking about going streaking in the dark or skinny dipping.  What I am actually talking about is honesty.  In my last blog post I feel as if I was in a metaphoric sense nakedness.  I didn't hide my feelings and I only stated truth.  Why should anyone care to read this blog if there is no truth to it?  I got many emails, texts and blog comments saying that  it was good that I made myself so vulnerable.  I didn't think that I actually did that until I reread my blog after seeing the comments.  They were right, and I was happy that they were telling me what they saw.

At the beginning of last year I completely hated blogging.  I felt as if what I was doing wasn't important and it was not important enough.  I was writing the blog for Luke and not for myself.  Over the summer I blogged sometimes and I did that for me and not for anyone else.  With a blog I feel as if I can do anything I want.  I can scream, yell, and be angry.  While I can also be sympathetic, vulnerable, honest, etc...  Blogging gives me my own voice.  I feel as if I am telling someone something even if nobody actually sees it.  I almost think of it in a therapeutic sense.  I've figured out different things about why I am? And why I fear?

I was thinking about this yesterday, but I felt odd posting this right after one extremely long and heavy duty post.  For all you wondering, I didn't actually write that post last night, I've had it saved for weeks as a draft.  Fear kept me from posting it before, and last night I wondered why I had so much fear?  Was it really that it was so personal or was it more that I was afraid of what people might think about it.  I feel relieved in a sense that I posted it, almost like I was being heard for the first time in a organic sense.  That post itself is one of the reason why I have learned to love blogging.  I can discover what ever I want, when I want, where I want and most importantly how I want.  If I really didn't like something I would say so.  Like Luke, my teacher, has been saying you are only wrong if you don't explain why.  Sure maybe you think I am wrong, but if I back myself up you have nothing to complain about.