Maybe it's my lack of experience, but I have trouble saying I love you. People throw those words around so generally and they expect me to be the same way. I am not the same way because to me saying something like that is important. I don't see a need to lie about something like love. I am only a 16 year old girl, do I really know what love is? what life is? I'm still trying to figure out if I'm in love, like, lust or a combination of the three.
Maybe it's me or does saying I love you feel more impersonal when said on a text. Technology is an amazing thing, but a text can be edited many times to be right. When you are actually face to face with someone, you only have one shot. That's the way it is with art also. Once over the summer I was doing portrait the girl from Easy A and I had just finished her face. At that point I was never much of a drawing artist, but over the summer I vowed that I would improve. Now all I had left to do was her hair and I was freaked out that I would mess up. One wrong move and it could very well be ruined beyond repair. I approached the sketch book in bold optimism and drew. It ended up not being half bad. It wasn't perfect and I wasn't looking for perfection.
As an artist I create what I feel. I don't pull from what others feel, but what is going on inside of me. If I am crazed my work is also, same thing goes for stress and most importantly feelings. If I was in a great mood I would most likely not do a red spatter paint. If looking at a painting like that, wouldn't you think I was in some type of pain when it was created. Whether it be physical and or emotional.
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